Final Reflection

My favorite post that we have done was the first post. It was the "I am" poem. That post made everyone think about who they really were. It was also a fun post, and I loved writing it. We also did the unit over dreams, and it was difficult to actually put my car dream on pencil and paper. Though, I've had the dream over and over again, it was suppressed because, I thought and maybe still think, that it's scary. It made me think about what the dream meant and how I don't like not having control over a situation. Another fun post we did in our journals and on our blogs was dream threads. I liked taking the lines of other peoples stories and making my own. The post that took the longest to write was the Halloween Horror Story post. It was fun finally seeing it all put together, and polished. I like to see what other people think of that tale. Other post I liked were the poems we put together using the paint samples, it was a fun and creative way to write. The most difficult things to write about were the short stories. It was hard to continue writing them after awhile. I have trouble with keeping the story line the same and focusing on the same subject. With "Fool Me Once" I had trouble following the same storyline, it was such a long story for me to write, I had to keep going to the beginning to make sure it made sense. The unit about music was my favorite unit probably, because music connects to everyone, and I have such different taste in music. I liked to show people my music taste and to connect with other people with music, especially when we connected music with childhood. It says a lot about you.

Other people's post were amazing, I liked to see the different writing styles. Some people rhymed, which I liked a lot, and others were serious and deep with their writing. I did read a lot of people's Halloween stories and I thought they were amazing and creative, yet still horrifying and twisted. I remember one story about cheating just like I had wrote about, but it was very different and had an amazing twist to the ending of it. I just wanted to keep reading more. At the beginning of the semester I remember reading some people's post and I thought someone was so funny and creative, plus they liked to rhyme whenever they wrote, they know how to keep a person entertained. I also remember some people reading their writing out loud in class and I just kept thinking, "You could be the new 'Dr. Seuss'." I also liked reading peoples "I am" poems because I felt like I was getting to know people better, especially since the class was new and I didn't know a lot of the people in the class on a personal level.I really liked seeing other peoples music connections and food connections. Especially towards Thanksgiving, I don't think we posted them on the blog, but I liked hearing about it in class, and sharing our food with other people.

I actually already had this blog made from whenever I was in sixth or seventh grade, go figure. I didn't remember I had it, until I logged onto it. I did delete my post from it because I thought it was embarrassing, but maybe I should have kept the post. I liked setting up a new blog, posting more mature stuff. I loved posting my stories and poems onto this blog for others to see, even if just Mrs. Fraser looked at the post, I was just glad that someone was reading them. I made up my name for the blog because I was and still am a pretty blunt person and if you put a blog in the midst of things, I will not censor what I write, especially if it's the truth I'm writing about. I don't know if I'll keep writing in the blog in the future, I know I will continue writing, but I'm not the type of person to post my thoughts or writing publicly anymore. I like to keep my writing personal and to myself.

The types of things in my journal are probably a lot of personal experiences, and rough drafts of what I was going to post onto the blog. They're very rough, but they're mostly just my thoughts and ideas set down on paper. I think a lot of people are very curious and like to open up someone's journal to see their personal thoughts. So, maybe curious people would like to read my journal. That would probably include my friends and my family. I would love for my mom to read my writing pieces at some point. I may continue to write in my journal, it will be a lot of personal stuff if I do continue to write in it. Like I said before, I like to write letters to people, but keep them to myself, so I might continue that on pencil and paper.

"Some days I dream of a normal suburban life. One with a husband and a job that gives my family more than enough. A few children and a big house in Springfield, Missouri. Other days I dream of traveling, going to Paris or even Tokyo. I would love to have a budding romance and live happily ever after. Other times I just come back to reality and I'm realistic to where I need to go. I've been dreaming to when I'm in my mid-thirties and I come to the conclusion that I cannot have a good future without thinking of the nearby future. My parents would definitely help me achieve my goals for the future."

This journal entry is an earlier entry, and I don't think I knew where I wanted to go in life, or if I was going to even get into college, but now I know I'll be okay in the future no matter what I decide to do.

"The most important quality in a friend would be loyalty. No matter what, your friend should have your back and not stab it. Whenever you need your friend they should be there for you, whether it's through text or in person. A friend should not drop you just because they got a boyfriend or just because they're busy. A friend should be able to spread out their time evenly between boyfriend and friends because high school relationships don't always last forever. A friendship will last forever. As long as the friend is loyal." 

This entry was motivated because my best friend and I had lost touch a little bit through out the year, because she had gotten a boyfriend and I felt lost without her. We used to spend a lot of time together, until she got a boyfriend and now I barely see her. I don't feel so betrayed anymore, but I do miss having her there for me all of the time.

"Hungry all of the time. Cookies."

"This is the family

I should have had."

"The perfect lie

disguised casually"

Those three quotes are from my favorite writing pieces I have posted on my blog. The six word poems, This is poem, and the most recent post we had posted, the blue dress. The post really describes me because I am really hungry all of the time, but when I am hungry, I tend to crave chocolate chip cookies or something sweet. The second post was about my family, it was really difficult to write about because I don't talk about it much, but I think it turned out beautifully. The final post I had written was about my first heart break that has lasted for almost two years and I have had a difficult time coping with it, but it really has helped me writing about it.

I like to write occasionally about situations I have been in on my own time, but I would never let anyone see them. They're mostly letters. Writing creatively really lets me get my feelings out and lets my mind wonder. This class has been a relief since I have Grammar and Composition, weighted, all we write is essays mostly with research. The only creative piece we've really done was our college essays. We aren't really allowed to step outside of facts, because we are getting prepared to write essays for college. I really like that I can broaden my horizon by being able to write creative pieces, if I decide to have a future in writing. Creative writing has really taught me how to be creative and have fun with writing. I might go into advertising because of this class.I like how we got to dig deep and find our creativity, I would like to continue to use my creativity in the real world. I think this class really helped me with that and it has helped me get closer to what I want to be in the future and what I want for the future.

I hope everyone keeps writing, keeps being inspired, uses their creativity to better themselves, maybe even inspire a few people, and just have fun when writing. Do not procrastinate on studying for finals, and I hope everyone has a fantastic rest of the year. I'll miss this class and everyone in it.

Blue

The perfect lie

disguised casually

wanting to feel something.

 I was in the dark

loving it.

 I didn't care

there was safety in that place.

I never felt true until I liked  him

A year later.

it was awful

to have something you could feel

but it was so thin.

I put on a fight

sometimes the days dense.

I had braved

but he had never been there for me.

 

 

 

 

 

Declaration of Intention: 2014

This year I will, become a better person and meet my goals. I will let go of the guy I haven't been able to get over and embrace good things in my life. I will honor my values and morals and love my family. I will stand up and share my love and patience with the world. This year, I will remember that I am loved and I am enough!

Lies Are Hard to Keep Track Of

Lies Are Hard To Keep Track Of

What's worse? Being lied to or being given the honest to goodness truth? If your best friend is keeping something from you is it a lie or are they protecting you? Would you lie to protect someone even if you know they would get mad at you in the end? If it came down to it, most people would lie or ignore the problem. When a person ignores the problem and lies, they forget to keep track of it and in the end the truth comes out. Lying may be the best solution at first, but once the truth is out things can only get better. To me, I would rather get the honest to goodness truth, I would rather them tell me something instead of them having to carry the burden of protecting me over something probably not even worth it in the end. If I know what is going on, then I can figure out the situation no matter how troublesome it is. 

Once a lie is out there, to keep the lie going there has to be more lies to keep the secret going. To keep a lie going, a person has to have a very good memory because they have to keep track of every single lie they have told about one thing, and they have to remember who they told it to. In the end, the truth will eventually come out. Many people are too lazy to keep a lie going and would rather take the easy way out anyway. Honesty is always the best policy.

Fight for Me

If I could change one thing about my love life it would be how much I use my brain. I would be smarter about the decisions I make. I wouldn't fall in love with someone who only manipulates me. If I could change who I fell in love with I would, so my heart wouldn't be as damaged as it is now. So, I would be able to give every guy a fighting chance to be with me. I would change the fact that I won't let myself love anyone else, because of this one guy. Which in all honesty, makes me mad because to me, one guy should not be what influences you or your decisions no matter what the situation is. I would change the way I love. Instead of loving the "I'm not giving you any attention" type I want to love someone that will give me enough attention. I want to love a guy who is sweet and caring, but still has his confidence. I would change the fact that I hold back whenever I shouldn't.

Is it Just Me or Is it Time to Eat?

We all have that one food and drink that we end up eating or drinking more than others. Every year for me it is different. I like to stick with one food or drink so I don't have to spend a lot of time at the gas station, at a resturant, or at a grocery store. My food quirks have been crazy over the years. I used to have a love for laffy taffy and lemonade. Three sticks of cherry Laffy Taffy and any kind of lemonade would be my vice. Every day after school I would persuade someone to go to the gas station so I could go get my daily dose of Laffy Taffy and Lemonade. Another time I had an unhealthy habit of Zero Calorie Monster. Most people like to drink coffee in the mornings at school, but I would always have two cans of Monster to help me stay up. That was until I got a panic attack at one of my cheer competitions. Every food quirk leads me to a memory or a different point in my life. For example, this year my food quirk is three chocolate chip cookies and a sweet tea from McDonalds. My best friend Jessica and I hung out almost every day of summer. Every night we would do something different, but we never failed to stop at Mcdonalds to get me a Large Sweet Tea and Chocolate Chip Cookies. One day, while it was pouring down rain, our friend had met us at the Mcdonalds by the mall to just come and hangout for a little while. We all had a good laugh at ourselves for even getting out in the rain, and we drove through the drive through to get some treats. Once summer ended, my best friend got her current boyfriend he would bring me Sweet Tea to get me to like him, even though we were already good friends. My friends sophomore year would always go up to Kum and Go to get slushies. We were the three amigos, and I remember the falling out we have and it reminds me of slushies and laffy taffy. We'd go get the slushies and hangout at my friends house and watch movies like "She's the Man" with Amanda Bynes in it. Every one has a food they get every time they go to a certain place, and memories that come with it.

Twelve

If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world? - Snow Patrol

Will you still love me
When I got nothing but my aching soul?- Lana Del Rey

You're too proud to say that you've made a mistake
You're a coward to the end -Marina & The Diamonds

And all the bad boys, are standing in the shadows
All the good girls, are home with broken hearts- Tom Petty

'Cause I'll be holding all the tickets,
And you'll be owning all the fines. -Bon Iver

Cut me down
But it's you who'll have further to fall- David Guetta

Remember only God can judge ya
Forget the haters 'cause somebody loves ya- Miley Cyrus

There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch, it's bringing me out the dark- Adele

The lingering question kept me up
2 AM, who do you love?- Taylor Swift

Everybody said we'd be together forever but I know that,
I never wanna settle down, come around, break up the love like Lego now- Ed Sheeran

Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed- The Fray

The truth is...I don't stand a chance
Its something that you're born into...- Weezer







Mom- A pair of uggs and a coach purse
Dad- A watch and a tie
Brother- Money and X-box game
Sister- Build-a-Bear and crafts
Justin Bieber-Me and Me
Jessica- Gift Card to favorite clothing store and money
Hanna- Box of Chocolates and Uggs
Kimberely- Uggs and Cheer stuff
Catie- Candy and Hello Kitty
Jenna- Dresses and Perfumes
Step-Mother- Perfumes and Lotions, maybe house appliance
Kayla- Scarves and Jewlery